messed up :/
My brain is so messed up right now. My boyfriend broke up with me last November because he decided that our long distance relationship was too much for him to cope with since we could only see each other once a year at the most and it literally crushed me. Ever since then i have been quite emotional and depressed and i was beginning to feel better last month but then he dropped a bombshell on me by telling me he liked someone else. I knew this day was coming but i didnt expect it to be so painful and hard to deal with. Now i am back at square one. Depressed and no idea how to get out of it and no motivation to do so either. I'm still hopelessly in love with him and it feels like im stuck because he's moved on and i can't seem to be able to do the same, part of me doesnt want to move on either, i just want to jump on a plane to Texas to see him. He is like imprinted in my brain and i even forgot my grandads birthday yesterday because of the way i am. Im really kinda scared that i wont be able to move on from this, its been 4 months already and im just as bad now as i was when we first broke up. Some days i dont even have the willpower to do any work at school, i just sit there doing nothing, lost in my own thoughts.