I am still feeling depressed but i've had a few good days lately when i have managed not to think about him and actually have a laugh with my friends
It felt great to laugh properly again because for ages if i laughed, it was fake so my friends wouldnt keep asking me if i was okay because i knew i would probably break down in front of them and i'm the kinda person that hates other people seeing them cry so...yeah

Just wanted to share my new found cheeriness which i am gonna try and keep this time and not fall back into depression again. :)